We had our last practice before the snooker tournament finally gets on its way. People around me say, "Aiya, you all lose liaoz la." Its super discouraging, can't lie about that. But you know, just can't really blame the guys. It may be undeniable, but we're gonna do our best anyway.

We'll just see how it goes tomorrow, whether it is we'll live up to the other school's expectation as previous champions and first runners up. Or just make a fool out of ourselves.

After practice went down and played soccer with the guys. Its weird but snooker really makes you a bit exhausted after awhile.

After the game, sat down at the bench and had a small talk with budiman. He's a nice dude really, could talk with him about stuff thats really bothering you. Though he said I'm a bit pathetic coz even he had a chance to go out with the girl he had a crush on, with a group but nonetheless... still walked alongside each other. And snap, just like that I kinda got into a state of depression.

The guy took off after that. Everyone else beside me was happily engaging in their convos but I just totally lost all mood to say anything at all.

Being all crestfallen, journey home was a bit saddening... I just dunno whats wrong with me... Never felt so sucky in a lifetime before.


I'm really just that pathetic huh?