I have a confession to make....It all started when I was younger. I used to be this real weird guy who likes people easily....=.=" But that was then...I've changed....At least I think I have. I dun think about steading anymre as much as last time. I understand now steading is suicide from all my friends experience...They come to me for help...Even though i can help them. I cant help but feel sad at times.



Seeing ppl having relationships is kind of painful to look at even though I dun show it...To see couples being in each other arms happily....Its hard to watch! esp. wen u noe ur not a chick magnet or anything. I noe dis isint de right time to fall in luv n stuff coz it will seriously affect our studies now...but I cant help but feel lonely wen I see others together.




Maybe this is the reason why I'm contradicted by my own thoughts...People ask me if I have a crush on someone....I cant even answer myself that. I think I have a crush on someone...but I wun say it out...Coz i've learnt over the yrs never to trust anyone. I dun even noe if i can love this person or not....She's a nice girl...but i believe she has her suitors. None like me. Simply put...i tink im not gd enuf for her. I also dun want her to freak out on me if i confess...I guess all I can do now is just silently watch after her....Make sure she's happy all the time, cheer her up if she feels down...Even if its falling in luv with another guy...I will give her my well wishes....